I did it again!!…


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I knew that broken heart  isn’t a fun things in our life. but, hell…I did it again…maih inget di postingan tentang gw dapet kerjaan baru and so on…so on?? gw nyeletuk tentang naksir cowok yang…he’s a good guy with the package of what I’ve wanted from a guy. Ternyata gw naro hati di orang yang salah, dasar cowok PHP alias Pemberi Harapan palsu. Mestinya dia kalau tau gw suka sama dia, secara langsung and gentleman kasih tau batasan, kalo jelas2 dia anggep gw cuman temen, da gw juga bukan cewek gak tau diri. Hmmpfft~payaaah….lo kasih gw madu, terus ngasih racun.

Okelah, brow…you win!! meski nasib gw tragis satu tempat kerja ma lo, dimana lo wara wiri, dan mata serta hati gw masih sering nyari keberadaan elo….meski pura-pura ketawa dan anggap semua itu gak pernah terjadi, gw tetep cewek mas brow. Meski lo move on, ma cewek tipe cherrybell yang lo taksir n pedekate-in…Gw juga berusaha move on. Belajar dari kesalahan, gw belajar mencintai diri gw sendiri, baru belajar mencintai orang lain. Gw mending di cintai dari pada mencintai orang yang gak seratus persen hati dan pikirannya untuk gw…

Lagunya Ailee jadi penentu dan theme song keadaan gw saat ini…hey, you gotta be aware! Cuz, the girl that you saw now…isn’t the same Mei, who sang…FT. Island – Severly and crying while listening John Park – Childlike.

Letting you go without any expression, as if it’s nothing –
I practiced doing that every day but it’s still awkward

I also practiced how to secretly cry while smiling but
I feel like my trembling voice will give it away quickly

Loving is probably hundreds and thousands of times more difficult than breaking up
But I’m a fool that can’t live without you – what do you want me to do?

* Severely, I guess I loved you too severely
I don’t even breath and I look around for you
I don’t know when I’ll be able to stop
Severely, I guess I loved you too severely
I think letting you go is more severe than dying

Trying to love you was wrong
I am a fool, who didn’t know my place
Compared to you, who is surrounded by high walls
I’m a senseless person, who doesn’t have anything

No matter how much I climbed, the sand hill kept flowing down
As I struggled with my knees sinking in – how did I look then?

Hahaha…nih, lagu buat lo, masbrow…cuz I know you were trouble.

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